Escape Schemes


Marc Abi Aad

What should I do to escape?
What direction should I take,
If I want to run from the mess?
Under which desk
Will I be protected the best?
Through which hallway
Might I not get nowhere?
How can I escape?

I want to know what to do to escape
What distraction should I take,
If I want to run from my mind
That keeps creating escape schemes
And ceaselessly drowns me in anxious screams?
Should I solve my overdue homework?
Or wash the dishes piled up in my kitchen?
How can I escape?

I need to know what to do to escape
To what thoughts should I adapt,
To run from the horror
And kill in my head anguishing images
Of fatherless skinny little girls
Struggling to carry their heavy school bags
Knowing that no hero will come and help?
How can I escape?

Tell me what to do to escape?
Would it be by taking a plane
And living in others’ land?
Will I ever find a plane,
That would take me away from who I am,
Rescue me from my memories,
And implement in me a new identity?
How can I escape?